Cycle 2

Well, cycle 2 is officially underway.  Yesterday I had an appt, and at the end I started asking all sorts of questions.

We're going out of town, what do we do?
What if this doesn't work?
What happens next cycle?
What about January when my husband is gone?
What...
Why...
How...
When...

You think it, I asked it.

I pretty much realized that I had already marked this cycle as a big fat X before it even had a chance to be a +.  I think I'm doing it to avoid any heartache.  It's hard to want something so badly it hurts only to not get it over.  And over.  And over.

I'm trying though.  I'm trying to think positive thoughts and be excited and hope for the best.  I'm trying to remember that God has a plan.  I'm trying to remember that someday, sometime, it will happen.  And it will be good.  And it will be in His absolute perfect timing.  I'm trying.

But it's hard.

Somebody tell me you get it, you understand what I'm saying.

But today is a new day.  And thankfully, this day started out AMAZING!  I'm not going to share why quite yet, but today is good.  Really, really good!

So instead of focusing on what might not happen, I'm choosing to focus on all the good things.  I'm choosing to remember all the things I have been blessed with and all the things I have to be thankful for.  I'm choosing joy instead of sorrow.  I'm choosing happiness instead of frustration.  I'm choosing hope instead of fear.  I'm choosing life instead of sadness.  I'm choosing the truth of Jesus instead of the lies of Satan.  

Today is a new day.  And it's a good one.