I figured this was as good a day as any to get the ole blog going again.
Rather than sharing the more common pink and blue ribbon, I posted this on my instagram and Facebook today.
I'll be honest, I'm not one of those that thinks about my would have been baby every day. In fact, I go long periods of time without thinking of him/her at all. When I think about it, I get sad. I don't like to be sad, so for me, it's easier just to not. You know what I mean? But regardless, I will always and forever wonder who that baby would have been.
Would he have been the star of the football team?
Would she have been the little bookwork that I am?
Would I have dressed him in the cutest little preppy clothes that I'm sure S would hate?
Would I have dressed her with bows bigger than her head? <--- YES. Without a doubt, yes ;)
I don't compare my situation to others, because we all have very unique, individual stories and testimonies, but when I think about the heartache others have suffered that I *know*, or at least imagine, has to have been worse than what I've been through, my heart hurts so much.
To the mom that carried her twins to 30 weeks only to find no heartbeat and have to deliver them stillborn...
To the dad that held his wife's hand and hugged her tight as the ultrasound showed no heartbeat...
To the couple that delivered a baby only to lose him/her hours later...
Today is for you.
Although not everyone has been through what you, me, we, have been through, we all hurt together.
We take today to remember those sweet ones that were just too precious for this earth and think about who you would have been.
Baby Seidler, I miss you always. I know you would've been awesome.
